I’ve been trying to get more in touch with my feminine side in the hope of helping to encourage my period to come back and during this process, I have discovered how out-of-touch I am with my female self. Not only is the female body one of the most beautiful things on this planet, but probably also one of the most hated – BY females. How can something so beautiful, be the thought of so much pain as well?
Social media for 1. Skinny girls, thigh gaps, perfect skin, nails, LIFE, diet, boyfriend, money etc.
Without the media, women would have never changed their thought process of what women are “meant” to look like. If you go back thousands of years, women were curvy, sensual, full of passion and love – ready to bring a new human into the world. (Check out the pic below)
FRICKEN AMAZING right?! Well, I’ve lost this part of me and after diving into the topic so much for my personal journey I’m hella ready to start sharing things with you guys as I KNOW I’m not the only one out there.
Anyway, the point of this blog post is that I lost touch with my feminine side. I’m the classic TYPE A person and I GO, GO, GO ALL THE FUCKING TIME . I’m confident, a do-oer, hard working, courageous, determined, full of fire like 99% of the time (the other 1% I’m having a mental break down from being so ‘ON’ all the freaking time) and have ‘balls the size of China’ as my Mum says. Whilst in our society this is seen as an accomplishment and something ‘good’. Turns out, it might not be so ‘good’ for my feminine energy. My acupuncturist and Chinese Medicine Guru Lauren has found that I actually have so much Yang (masculinity) that I have depleted all of my Yin and has lost my Yin pulse.
Whilst I’ve been manifesting, meditating with my hands over my uterus, lying in the moon, having baths, trying to slow down more and get more of my feminine energy of rest, restore and cultivate more slowness…these are all things I’m quite comfortable doing and ‘easy’. However dancing in my underwear around my room, was a foreign concept and not one I had thought of until I read Carly Morgan Gross’s eBook and thought I would give it a shot.
At this point, I’m willing to try anything. Not only to get my period back but also because I understand the vital importance of the Yin and Yang, Masculine and Feminine. I know that the Masculine is attracted to the Feminine and NEED the feminine and subconsciously they are seriously turned on by the Yin. But more than this, I need to love myself and my body more. The blockages and negativity is affecting my life and I am SO READY to bring more love, passion, creativity, work, and energy into my life but I can feel the universe telling me ‘LOVE YOURSELF MORE’. I know you’ve been told a thousand times that you need to love yourself and then more will be attracted towards you, and I have too … but it has taken me a while to act upon it. It’s much easier said than done.
So, I took off my clothes, got into some sexy lingerie, put on some of my favourite tunes and danced like a woman. I moved my hips, my butt, my arms. I hugged myself, I sang to myself in the mirror and smiled at myself because the love I was feeling in that very moment was fucking REAL. I moved my hands over my body and got in touch with myself. With my soul.
It was funny actually because one of the songs I was swinging my body to was ‘When I look at you’ by Miley Cyrus and the lyrics made me think that it is really only ME that can fix a problem… produce love in my life and bring me joy.
It’s almost like my soul was singing to me …
When I look at you – when you look at yourself
I see forgiveness
I see the truth – your soul will always forgive you for your mean girl thoughts but most importantly, you soul sees the TRUTH – that you are real, beautiful, authentic and AMAZEBALLS
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon – your soul loves you for YOU. Just as you should love you for YOU and the universe loves you for YOU and anyone worth having in your life loves you for YOU (jeez that was a lot of “you’s”)
Right there where they belong
And I know I’m not alone
Yeah when my world is falling apart
When there’s no light
To break up the dark
That’s when I, I
I look at you – you have to look at your soul when you’ve got a problem because only YOU can fix it!
When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can’t find my way home any more
That’s when I, I
I look at you
You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me
All I need
Every breath that I breathe
Don’t you know you’re beautiful – your soul is literally saying to you ‘don’t you know how fucking beautiful you are???!!!’
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Okay, so I know the song was not meant for this purpose (and explaining that was ULTRA CHEEZY!!!) but I just felt like the universe was telling me something when this song came on as I was dancing in my lingerie trying to incorporate more self-love into my life. There is no way that I don’t look at pictures on social media and think ‘oh I wish I looked like her’ but I’m trying. And I have to give myself credit for that. One thing that I have found really helpful is to stop following accounts that don’t inspire you.
If account xyz is constantly posting her thigh gap – that’s not inspiring you in a healthy way. Because guess what. She is either (a) hurting her body and freaking starving!!! Or (b) she was born like that and eats a TONNE but it still goes straight out her butt, into the loo and not to her thighs. And that’s okay. But don’t make assumptions because that is what makes up stories in your head. Follow some real babes that just live an authentic life. They have a good diet, don’t kill themselves at the gym and just love their womanly bodies for how they were born!! If you eat like humans are meant to eat (plants, nuts, fats, meat), then you can’t really be mean to your body, can you? Because you were born with your figure and if you’re eating to nourish it, then you can’t do much more.
So the point of this blog post is: If you’ve tried affirmations, telling yourself you’re beautiful etc etc – try dancing in your undies to some good tunes. Not only will your dopamine (feel good hormone) skyrocket, but you will instantly have more appreciation for your body and self. And that’s a good step in the right direction.